i put on my broken smile.

done !

koko utk sem ni dengan officiallnya tamat hari ni.

kononnya nak ada test praktikal.

but suddenly tak jadi.

tak cukup masa.

kami dah berapa orang.

nak test sorang2.

2 jam ja.

mana sempat kan?

[ 08092011 ]

for the first time, jumpa long-leg ajusshi sejak cuti raya hari tu.

err is that sound that i miss him?

hmm whatever.

when cikgu done talking and we done signing our attendance,
 we went back to our college.

i'm walking, walking and walking.

i saw him walking in front of me.
piggy-ride back his black backpack.
the air breeze playing with his dark black hair.

sometime he's nearer but sometime he's far.

i put on my red earphone.

PLAY.

the player played me Afraid of Love by Bobby Kim.

OST Spy Myeongwol.

suddenly felt so sad.
i lazyly walked straight to my college while he turned right at the junction.
went back to his college.
my stubborn-want-to-see-no-matter-what eyes secretly glanced at him,
until he lost in my eyesight. 

IT'S IMPOSIBLE.
 i screamed silently.

i said to syakila, ' why i feel sad? '

she replied me with a plain smile, 'because you think it's hard to get?'

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I might go crazy
No, actually I already might be already crazy about you
I might just die
No, actually I already might not be able to live without you
A love that can’t happen in this world
A person that I shouldn’t fall in love with
The more I turn my back against you
I miss you even more
I’m getting scared, I’m scared of love
I even miss your shadow
I’m so scared that my love is you
I should have just passed you by
I should not have fell in love with you
I miss you even more
I’m getting scared, I’m scared of love
I even miss your shadow
I’m so scared that my love is you
Can you tell me what to do?
Will I be able to get out of this fate?
I love you, love you
I love you to death
Even if my heart aches so much
Even if my tears won’t stop
Even if I can’t love you
I love you