slightly believe it.

here i go again talking about love?

am i sound that desperate?

no i just .. kinda need it right now.

i'm all away far from my girls.

i just say that i don't believe in things that not make me happy.

the more i watch all the korean movies i obsessed of, the more i want someone here by myside.

with all lesson i have take and learn, i wanna be the very best girl for him.

with pure and loyal love of mine, i wanna give the best as i could.

with all the loneliness i feel all this time, i wanna fill it with his existence

with all the heaven things i saw on my korean dramas, i wanna do it with him.

with this still-virgin hand , i want him to hold it tight and never let it go.

for the sake of the future, i can feel he is the right man.

and i want to him to be LIFE PARTNER.

yes, i lied. 

i slightly believe in LOVE.

My morning starts to shine with teardrops in my eyes
And here I am alone starting to realize
That my days would be brighter, if I could learn to hide
The feelings that I have for you keep hurtin me inside

Then my day begins with simple thoughts of you
Hoping that tomorrow would be me and you
Sharing dreams with each other
And making them come true
Holding one another, saying all I need is you

But will you say that you love me
And show me that you care
Say when I need you, you will always be there
But if you go and leave me
This I swear is true, my love will always be with you
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/k/kyla/say_that_you_love_me.html ]
Now my nights would end that just one wish that's you
To hold me in the dark, help me make it through
Cause the pain that's inside me, would simply melt away
If I had you here with me and promise me you'll stay

But will you say that you love me
And show me that you care
Say when I need you, you will always be there
But if you go and leave me
This I swear is true, my love will always be with you

But will you say that you love me
And show me that you care
Say when I need you, you will always be there
But if you go and leave me
This I swear is true
My love will always
My love will always ooh, ooh
My love will always be with you

LOVE?

tell me if you can describe this unbelievable thing.

one second it come, you feel like stepping on the cloud.

one second then, you feel like this world will going to end.

yesterday you happy like crazy.

today it gone in a blink of eyes only.

your heart yesterday blooming with beautiful flowers

but then all the crappy damn little green thing ate up all the smile of the flowers.

yesterday you can tell the world with your ear-to smile

today with a flick of two finger everything , GONE.

all this time you feel this is the right things ever

but until it nearly come to the best day, it's turn backward.

when i said i don't believe in love, they said i'm too paranoid.

when i said love just give you heartache, they said not all love like that

love is not a happy stuff that you can keep in box.

like taking care of it.

if you're in love or be loved.

ask yourself, ' am i sacrifies enough?'

i'm not going to say ' love is all about sacrifies'

but when you sacrifies then that is LOVE.

Prinsip Asas Islam

' Sesungguhnya Allah tidak melihat kepada badan kamu dan tidak juga kepada rupa kamu, tetapi Allah memandang kepada hati kamu '

-Hadis Riwayat Muslim-

namja #1

He who is left-handed is cool. :)

FINAL EXAM.

nak Final dah kan?

rasa macam baru semalam ja masok UiTM *statement hiperbola*

next week start la perperangan.

so i just come back home with hope, its the best place to study the certain first subject.

i think i do not need anybody as my tutor since i can still handle the subject myself.

BEL

CTU

PHY

BIO

CHM

MAT

GOODLUCK. HOPE GOOD THINGS WILL HAPPEN TO ME.

now i wish time just flew like a toronado.

the faster the better.

so i can officially graduated and further again my studies.

have my dream career.

save a lot of money.

gave Umi a better life.

travel aroud the world. *hanguk!*

married a good person.

having some kids.

LIVE HAPPILY.

ok memang dah melalut.

BYEEE :)

the heaven of marina bay sands.

my eyes widely open.

ohmaigod IT'S SUCH A HEAVEN!

those unique design and creative landscape.

i wonder who that brilliant-hot architecture.

 and i for surely wanna visit it for my honeymoon. 

keke :D

 GOD, I WAS IN LOVE WITH THIS BEAUTIFUL CREATURE ^^

mean he don't want to.

i begin the IM conversation.

good things is he replied it.

when it come for his turn to reply me back.

DISSAPOINTED. :|

he didn't.

i can see he's still there.

hmm okay.

MEAN HE DON'T WANT TO.

music theory test.

i had music theory test today.

alhamdullilah. it's going well.

this thursday will go take the result from Cikgu.

and DUIT RAYA :D

keke 

ok bye.

chenistry oh chemistry.

chemistry is killing me !

but my dreams need me to falling in love with it.

 you don't know how much i'm addicted to this stuffs

National Forensic Service.

you have a long way to go, girl :)

hwaiting !

don't give up !

i put on my broken smile.

done !

koko utk sem ni dengan officiallnya tamat hari ni.

kononnya nak ada test praktikal.

but suddenly tak jadi.

tak cukup masa.

kami dah berapa orang.

nak test sorang2.

2 jam ja.

mana sempat kan?

[ 08092011 ]

for the first time, jumpa long-leg ajusshi sejak cuti raya hari tu.

err is that sound that i miss him?

hmm whatever.

when cikgu done talking and we done signing our attendance,
 we went back to our college.

i'm walking, walking and walking.

i saw him walking in front of me.
piggy-ride back his black backpack.
the air breeze playing with his dark black hair.

sometime he's nearer but sometime he's far.

i put on my red earphone.

PLAY.

the player played me Afraid of Love by Bobby Kim.

OST Spy Myeongwol.

suddenly felt so sad.
i lazyly walked straight to my college while he turned right at the junction.
went back to his college.
my stubborn-want-to-see-no-matter-what eyes secretly glanced at him,
until he lost in my eyesight. 

IT'S IMPOSIBLE.
 i screamed silently.

i said to syakila, ' why i feel sad? '

she replied me with a plain smile, 'because you think it's hard to get?'

*********

I might go crazy
No, actually I already might be already crazy about you
I might just die
No, actually I already might not be able to live without you
A love that can’t happen in this world
A person that I shouldn’t fall in love with
The more I turn my back against you
I miss you even more
I’m getting scared, I’m scared of love
I even miss your shadow
I’m so scared that my love is you
I should have just passed you by
I should not have fell in love with you
I miss you even more
I’m getting scared, I’m scared of love
I even miss your shadow
I’m so scared that my love is you
Can you tell me what to do?
Will I be able to get out of this fate?
I love you, love you
I love you to death
Even if my heart aches so much
Even if my tears won’t stop
Even if I can’t love you
I love you

Bobby Kim - Afraid of Love ( OST Spy Myeongwol )

I might go crazy
No, actually I already might be already crazy about you
I might just die
No, actually I already might not be able to live without you
A love that can't happen in this world
A person that I shouldn't fall in love with
The more I turn my back against you
I miss you even more
I'm getting scared, I'm scared of love
I even miss your shadow
I'm so scared that my love is you
I should have just passed you by
I should not have fell in love with you
I miss you even more
I'm getting scared, I'm scared of love
I even miss your shadow
I'm so scared that my love is you
Can you tell me what to do?
Will I be able to get out of this fate?
I love you, love you
I love you to death
Even if my heart aches so much
Even if my tears won't stop
Even if I can't love you
I love you 

Ryewook Super Junior - If you love me more ( OST Spy Myeongwol )

Wherever I am, I think of you
Whatever I do, I think of you
Your scent blows over to me
Whenever I thoughtlessly walk and meet you
My mouth hardens

No one no one no one knows these words
Day by day by day I can’t say these words

I love you I love you
More than anyone I know
The person I’m always missing
That person is you
But these sad whispers can only be heard by you
If I love you and love you more

With each passing look
With each passing touch
My slow heart jumps to a start
When you do not look at me
When you don’t talk to me
My heart becomes heavy

But still but still but still I laugh
And then and then tears come

I love you I love you
More than anyone I know
The person I’m always missing
That person is you
But these sad whispers can only be heard by you
If I love you and love you more

The day when you come to know my heart
Then I wonder if you will say you love me too

I will wait just a little more until you will come to me
The person that is always lonely
That person is me
Though I am standing behind you today
I wonder if I will stand next to you tomorrow

If I love you and love you more

i miss you. :')

its 06092011.

he greeted me with smiley faces on the screen.

its up to me.

rather i just want to ignore it or. . .

ok i know i couldn't resist it. -.-

i'm sorry, but i miss you.

all his says warm up my cold heart.

* syazleen, are you loosing your mind? *

asking about my number again.

when at one time i wish him goodluck, he ask me who i am?

naa, i just thought that was the best time to make him keep his life busy without keep in touch with me.

Mr. Ego win!

i didn't replied his text.

SILENCE.

for the this time being, all my favvy songs remind me of him.

especially . .

Always the exactly same sky and always the same day
Only thing that is different is that you are not here
I thought I've let you go. Without anything left
No, no. I still haven't been able to let you go

Longing for you, I am longing for you.
Because I am longing for you, I call you and call you by myself everyday
Missing you, I am missing you.
Because I am missing you, now I just call out your name like a habit. Even today

Day by day, I feel like I am dying, so what could I do?
Love you, Love you I love you
Without even being able to tell you these, I've had to let you go like that

Sorry, I am sorry.
Can you hear me?
Could you be able to hear my late confession?
I love you.

then i decide to continue living like this.

when i'm ware of by tiredness and heartache.

patiently, waiting for my destiny.

to taste some sweet moment of life,

i know the day will come.

when i'll become the best of me and giving my best of my all. :)

long-leg ajusshi :)

this is the story of him.

the person i like? no,just adore,ok?

trust me the more i live the more i can't accept anybody in my heart -.-

haha yeah this is Hwang Chansung from 2pm

that dude is really like him.

even the way his laugh.

his big laugh resembles chansungie the most.

keke

aww so cute >.<

long-leg ajusshi?

haha why i call him that?

GOD, he is hella tall !

mean REALLY TALL. O.o

188 cm !

can you imagine? 

people said the taller the hotter kan?

wahaha XD

his leg is jinja jinja LONG!

ok frankly to said that attract me the most when the first time i saw him.

i'm not that curious to know his name at the first time like how i dayyum wanna know his height.

i never see a man at his tall this close

those kpop namja only seen in tv.

so you can't accurately see how tall they are in tv

chansungiee, you lose to his tall !

this picture resembles him a lot.

its hard to find it but i think this picture like long-leg ajushhi the most. >.<

the real picture?

you think i'm crazy?

grrrr aniyo aniyo ~

if someone stalking this, i'm totally a dead meat. -.-

well, i enjoy living like this.

its enough what kind of love story i have to face back then.

its killing me.

seeing from far.

chatting like friends

adoring in heart.

its enough for me.

in fact, i just do it to feel like flying :)

love, syazleen ツ

live your life at fullest.